seems I fail
at letting go
of past hurts
speak of leaving them behind
yet hold them to me tight
picking at the scabs
making them bleed
putting the past
behind me
forgiving
and
forgetting …
so much easier
if the past doesn’t
creep up
and grab me
by the ankle
pulling me back in
it’s just this small thing
just this tiny thing
but magnified
’til those past hurts
are right now
sore and stinging
with unfairness
and confusion
I have to learn
this letting go
remember
what I have
here in my hand
this golden
precious
love-filled future
where pasts are merely
stories
of a different time
and
now
is all
that matters
If you’re not already practicing sitting, it really does help with the letting go. But it is kind of like quitting any bad habit. It never completely goes away.
You have the right attitude.
“I have realized that the past and future are real illusions, that they exist in the present, which is what there is and all there is.”
—Alan Watts
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It’s hard to find time to just sit, what with work and kids, but I think I need to work on that 🙂
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How do you let go of what has shaped you into this moment of here and now? Perhaps it is not letting go at all that is needed – just accepting that what was is past and tomorrow is waiting…
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Some parts yes, they made me who I am and I need to just accept them and move on, but other parts when I hold on to bitterness do need to go.
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the first step in ‘letting go’ is that muscular little exercise you just wrote about: the awareness that you are not letting go – and even picking the scabs – means you have already started to let go and maybe, even, to start liking that kid who won’t let go; easily; I liked her …
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Yes, knowing I’m doing it is the beginning of stopping doing it …
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natch
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With you there, Blue-Goo. You talk very earnestly about things I can’t really understand, but I feel your feelings I think. But you wouldn’t be who you are without the past, and the expectations of the future wouldn’t be as glorious. I hope you live in the glory.
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Indeed I wouldn’t be me without the past but there are some bits that need to be forgotten and not dwelt on any more
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I hear you.
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When you’re ready, you will let go. In the meantime, be patient with yourself ❤
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Thank you 🙂 I will try and be patient with myself but sometimes I do need a bit of a kick! 🙂
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once being a director of own life, letting go is natural part, – an act on the scene that you play when time is right. beautiful words ~~
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Thank you Poojy, I think I’ve let go a bit since writing this, so perhaps the time is now 🙂
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it is, i’m sure 🙂
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