Today I have officially freed myself from a feeling of obligation to finish the Kaleidoscope CAL. I really did want to have that beautiful finished blanket, but the pleasure of creating had gone. I kept doing other things because I didn’t want to keep creating lots and lots of triangles, and I was feeling guilty and pressured (by myself) to work on it even though I didn’t want to. Those who finish it will have my utmost respect.
So, having decided this, and feeling relief from all the ‘I should …’ thoughts, I decided I would do a different CAL with the yarn I bought, and any other bits and pieces I have in my stash. I am a member of a crochet group on Facebook that I joined when I did the Water Garden CAL (wow that was 2 years ago!) and on there they started a new CAL called Pandemonium CAL. I’ve been seeing lovely photos go by and have considered joining in, but those ‘shoulds’ stopped me. So now I’ve got rid of the ‘shoulds’, I’ve joined in! They’re up to part 6 at the moment, and I’ve spent this morning doing parts 1 and 2 and I’m loving it 🙂 It’s so much more fun and relaxing. Here’s how it looks so far:
That’s only a part of it as its 210 stitches wide. It will make a good sized blanket and is colourful and full of texture and interest.
I’m going to make a cushion cover out of all those squares I made for the Kaleidscope CAL, so they won’t go to waste!
My cardigan is progressing, but I’m unsure about it at the moment. I did the whole of the body and put some edging on but I just tried it on and was a bit dubious about the size. I think I picture myself in my mind rather slimmer than the reality! So I’m not sure whether I’m going to carry on and do the arms as it is, or frog it a way back and redo it… it’s always a bit deflating when you find yourself not entirely happy with how something is turning out. But there’s no rush, it’s not like I’m going anywhere where anyone will see what I’m wearing! Only glimpses in video meetings for work!
So anyway – here it is at the moment… it may grow sleeves, or it may get smaller again and regrow!