Pain & friends

I have been struggling a bit recently with my pain levels which can lead me to sink into a cloud of gloom. Pain and tiredness can bring along their lovely friends anxiety and depression and it’s easy to fall into a blue mood. Some days I struggle. And foolishly I try to pretend I’m fine. But…… Continue reading Pain & friends


Waves crashing over me, Waves of sadness, Waves of frustration, Waves of hopelessness. In between, the relief of feeling Normal. As the ocean sucks back its spent waves I’m ready for the next one. Braced for it to smash into me. I think I know what’s coming, But it surprises me with its strength And…… Continue reading Waves

The Edge

Again, I am teetering on the edge. Looking down at the swirling darkness, Tempted to leap in and let it take me.   It feels like pain is all there is. Nothing but the tearing loneliness, When brief connections just make it worse when they’re over.   Questions go unanswered, needs go unmet. I am…… Continue reading The Edge