I am a hermit, curled tight in my shell. Face pressed into the warmth of my creativity. I cannot rise above perpetual pain to be your beacon in the night. The world is larger than my mind can stretch. You will move beyond to the stars.
my head is full of brambles where thoughts get snagged and tangled up where worries catch and hang like flags all flapping in the breeze
a tiny grain of worry quite minor no big deal has been bouncing around my head for days like a hailstone in an updraft growing bigger adding layers upon layers of other small worries until it’s too heavy to stay in the clouds too big to ignore so it has become a huge worry aContinue reading “anxiety”
stretched taut thin and delicate a fragile veneer over the endless circles of my unkind mind
the dip in the road approaches I feel it and I fear it all these days I was strong now so weary can I fight it?
some days are like drowning sinking down in the blue ’til you reach down to save me when I come home to you I rush up with bubbles leave the darkness below bob up to the surface to be wrapped in your glow
the snowball that is me unravelling rolls downhill growing in size from one small thing the world starts to spin faster and wilder tumbling and falling ’til I crash in your arms squeaky voice tears soaking your shirt and hold on tight to your love
fears diminished defeated by love as you patiently pick away at my walls and push me gently past the invisible barriers to break free and dare to feel
constrained by fear of myself not enough yet too much now encased in a wall going numb
my song has halted my voice is broken my tongue is tied up in knots my mind a fevered place of thoughts and ideas swimming in murky waters of worries and fears and I ache for you and I yearn to smile fully warmly with every part of me and feel that joy again justContinue reading “halted”